Interesting but my drawings look damn kiddy.

Yes i know it myself and no one did mention it to me even though i KNOW they feel that way.

nono i'm not thinking too much. it was when i kept ranting on how my designs sucked then gene said "ya your designs look so kiddy i see liao i wana laugh hahaha " and i proceeded on by laughing it off. No i'm not angry cause i know it myself too. It just kinda sucks when people comment on your work. it applies to everyone rgt? 

I swear i felt embarrassed when my designs were flashed on the screen. It didn't help when it became obvious that i myself was ashamed of my own work when i briefly explained my concept and quickly told harvey to go to the next slide. It became worse when he fused me&xy's design tgt and the bottom is like the exact same plain black pants from the designer we chose? which also means i totally am not creative at all and ya that sucks. it hit me even badly when he tried to fuse me&xy's showcase designs and my ideas were kinda useless. he seemed like he fused both of them tgt for the sake of fusing them tgt.

i just felt useless but as usual, smiling like nth happened.

sad to say i chose retail because i simply can't draw for heavens sake. 

my initial purpose in coming to ADM is to design apparel but.. yeah. 

well at least i found another alternative which i have interest in.

but i still wished i had the talent to draw.

i'm starting to feel like i'm living for the sake of living.

no wait i'm not being emotional. it's just how i feel right now.

ok i'm going out soon. bye